OMG! Test Case Turns 21

The first one to hatch recently turned 21 and I can't fathom how time shot by so fast. When I look back at how nervous I was about being a mother, I can't believe he didn't turn out to be a nutjob! I held my breath all weekend because I was sure he'd have a seizure due to lack of sleep and over celebrating. His friends threw him a very special "Hollywood" party. Everyone had to go dressed as a famous celebrity. Famous to who? Well, my son and his friend went as Jay and Silent Bob. No one my age knows who the hell they are and trust me you don't really want to know. Well, bless him, he didn't go over on his text messaging this month! Someday I'm sure he'll grow up (won't he??) but until then I walk the line between being too strict and too easy going. What to do? We can't just kick him out of the nest just yet. He needs a few shoves but I am not capable of delivering them right now. I'll think about this tomorrow...

Why I love the blogosphere

I used to think that blogging was kind of silly. I have come to love the blogosphere. I love reading random blogs. How else would I see a sensitive Russian teenager's photography? I could have translated the text in oh, about 10 hours, reaching back thirty years to my old Russian lessons in high school, but the photos told the story. How else could I read about other people's struggles with epilepsy? I wanted my son to read them too. It might help him to see he's not alone. He still lives in the land of denial (me: honey, read some of these blogs written by other people like you. him: those f***ing people aren't like me!^ end of subject^) How else could I discover all the other women out there who also feel invisible, even with their own families? It is not something I am currently experiencing but I remember the horrid lonely feeling I got when I realized that nobody was listening. Best of all, the blogosphere allows escape into pure fantasyland when I get to peek into the life of the irrepressible mrs.bg. Little does she know that I have a burning crush on her husband! But then again I see that a lot of women of all ages and sensiblities seem to love bg. How does she handle the jealousy?? I'm sure I'll 'tune in' for another segment and find out. I'll bet lots of women are always coming on to her man. He has a certain combination of characteristics that drive women crazy. Of course, he's married and I do not approve of chasing after other women's husbands. After all, it only causes other women severe pain as I well know! Anyway I'd love to see mrs.bg kick some skank's ass. What fun.
See, now I still think blogging is a little bit silly, but hey, it is a great way to connect with people all over the world and see that you are not alone. There's really nothing silly about that , is there?

Tough Times

This is the fire that forges a courageous heart, I tell my sons. Seizures, football trauma and all the emotions that race around in your brain. I feel too much. It is a real physical pain even though the the worst is actually happening to another, a loved one. Every mother knows what I know. Empathy just turbo-charges those pains.
Life kinda sucks right now and yet they aren't gone forever. I can still talk to them. I also feel guilty about that too. My coworker can't talk to her boy anymore. I tell myself I am ridiculous anyway you look at it.
I've never been normal, why start now?